Motivate Me

motivateme

Eat Clean. Train Dirty. Nothing tastes as good as fit/skinny feels. Just say no.

We’ve all heard it. I’ve said it. Heck, I’ve lived it. But, for me, it hasn’t been maintainable. I do really awesome for a few months then I get derailed and fall of track and gain a few pounds back. I beat myself up and wonder why I just can’t have the willpower to say no. I look at “fitspo” pictures and remind myself how far I have left to go instead of how far I’ve come and I get even more discouraged.

As a female, it is really easy for us to compare ourselves to others and become convinced we are not good enough. Hearing our “peers” brag about saying no to cheeseburgers and desserts makes us feel bad about not saying no. Should this be the case? No. But even though we know better, we still do it.

So, here is where I am. I am discouraged. I am confused. I am angry with myself and I am disappointed in myself.

I think there is a lesson here though and it is one I’ve ben trying to learn for my 31+ years … no one else can make me better or happy. I am solely responsible for this. As important as it is to have role models or mentors and family or friends, at the end of the day, I am the only responsible and accountable for my own actions and results.

Take this morning for example, I woke up at 4:45, got up, took my pre-workout and then went back to bed. This was after flipping the pages of my fitness magazines as I waited for the pre-workout to kick in – what could be more motivating, right? Wrong. I need to be my own motivation – because without that, what good is a random stranger’s picture when I don’t even believe in myself.

This year has been a rollercoaster when it comes to my health and fitness. I know I feel better and happier with I eat right and work out, but I also know I am my own worst enemy when it comes to seeing and acknowledging my progress. But, I am working on it – and that’s the best I can do.